My therapist:
“do you have any goals for 2024?”

Me:
“😅 not really. I feel like… if I can just keep up with the areas I’m making progress in now and keep that up through 2024, I’ll be alright.”

My therapist:
“Hey, that’s still a goal! It doesn’t always have to be ‘New Year, New Me’.”

I’ve been thinking about this a bit the past few days…

Last year, I wanted to invest in better rest and self care practices. I finally got there and I am 100% better for it… but I know I still have a ways to go. I want to be better and continue to get better. I see progress in my mental health, and I want to continue to see that. I’m seeing progress in my physical health, and I want to continue that -but more importantly- maintain the baseline I’m at now. I want to keep growing, but I also know maintaining what I have reached this past year is essential to my well being moving forward.

2023

This year has been hard.

Things had gotten hard in some areas while we were still living in Texas, but it was also extremely difficult to move away from the family members I love and cherish who live there and had become such a big part of our lives. It was hard to move again across the country for the 3rd time, to a city I hadn’t really spent time in. It was hard to make the decision to stop communicating with a family member. It’s been hard to work through the things that both made that possible and revealed why I needed too. It’s been hard to find myself at the end of another year not pregnant or any closer in anyway to expanding our family.

This year has been full of new beginnings and trying new things.

We’ve been working on establishing new ones the ground relationships and community in our new city. The year has brought new starts at new jobs and a new church. This year has opened me to new opportunities and possibilities as well as new growth, challenges, and hopes.

This year has brought a lot of questions as well as a lot of healing.

✨ 2024 ✨

I have hopes and dreams for you.

I carry the same hope and dream of being pregnant or being closer to expanding our family by this time next year. I hope to see some of my husbands dreams and hopes and aspirations come into full swing. I hope for a lot of growth and a lot of good… and the strength to maintain what I’ve obtained and achieved already.

I don’t have a lot of goals or confidence, but I have some hopeful expectations.

See yall on the other side,

Bella L.